Post by RoseNadler on Oct 22, 2020 12:58:34 GMT -8
This morning, I was taking a walk outside for about 30 minutes. A thought popped into my head: “You’ve invested a lot into feeling ripped off.”
It’s like my higher power or my recovery mind was talking directly to me. I realized I *have* invested a lot in feeling like I’ve been ripped off.
I wonder why? I wonder what unfair childhood situation happened that started me on a path of righteous indignation? (I know my parents modeled the behavior; I distinctly remember them being that way.)
I wonder why I have hung onto that feeling at different parts in my life. What was I gaining from feeling angry that life wasn’t fair, and I wasn’t getting something other people had? Why did my mind make such a big drama over feeling deprived?
Do I still do that, and not even realize it? I hope not!
Thanks for sharing this. I've had a few of those "ah ha moments" recently, although I can't think of any examples without going back over my journaling. I think what happens is that we can be processing situations, doing our step work, seeing and doing things differently and then suddenly a penny drops and it seems like it comes out of nowhere, but in actual fact it is the reward for having done this earlier footwork. I suspect the revelation comes whenever God believes we are ready to make good use of the information.....that we won't waste it.