Post by londondreamer on Aug 23, 2020 10:51:05 GMT -8
Wow. Just downloaded the LAA Basic text - and read it in one sitting. I got identification in many aspects of the stories (though not every) - which is fine for take what you like and leave the rest, as well as identify don't compare!
In the last story someone shared their therapist told them they wanted nothing more to do with them after six sessions. That actually happened to me (and it was three sessions). He seemed bored with my sharing and was dismissive of "the great obsession" (his disparaging phrase).
I haven't seen a therapist since and I guess it still rankles with me as I'd had bad experiences with the previous two as well (one overcharged me and shouted at me when I pointed out the bill was twice what we'd agreed).
Anyway, I guess it's something that has affected my confidence in the "professionals" who I've found to be unprofessional (and charging plenty for it).
I haven't had a sponsor for over 20 years and feel it's time I had one for the deeper sharing you can't really do at meetings. I liked the part in the LAA text that referred to sharing my feelings with trustworthy people in recovery. Not everyone at a meeting is in recovery so I can only share in a general way there.
When I was 19 the court sent me to a therapist and he seduced me and then dumped me. My second therapist helped me get back into school and did a lot to build up my self-esteem. My third therapist was too passive and gave me no feedback. She kept hinting that something has gone wrong in my childhood.
I finally hit the jackpot with my last therapist. We analyzed my dreams and my Freudian slips and really got to the bottom of what went wrong when I was a child. Then we processed what happened to me. So I'm glad I didn't give up on therapy. But you do have to be with the right one. It has to be a good match. The best book about therapy is called In Session by Deborah Lot. I would recommend it for you try therapy again.