As a child and even now, I have lied to impress people so that they would like me
Thank you for your story and for your honesty. That is a great first step. In my book, Addiction to Love, I discuss lying to impress people. I call it "image management." It applies to people who do not like themselves so they either hide things about themselves or they lie. Everyone wants to put their best foot forward, but you cross the line when you present someone you are not. Then if the person you deceive falls in love with you they will leave when they find out the truth and then you will feel abandoned again. The habit of deceiving becomes an addiction, and soon you cannot stop yourself. Eventually you lose the real you. This is sad. You are special. You are unique. You are lovable just as you are.
The solution is to learn to love yourself just as you are. Present this to the person you are dating. If you are not the person he is looking for he will move on. This is good as you do not want to be with the wrong person. That is love addiction. When you do meet the right person, who loves you as you are, it will the most wonderful experience in your life. It will be worth waiting for believe me.
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