It’s a hypothetical question and fantasy but if I find a girlfriend or a new wife, I should tell her about my mental illness or the fact I go to see a councelor or a mental doctor? If she can’t accept it, I think I should give up her. She may ask why I have something to tell someone else such as a councellor. She may ask what I talk about to the experts. She may not be happy with my going to the clinic. She may think I should tell her about all I do. However, it’s impossible for her to understand all I feel or think. Am I wrong?
I think that living with a partner that you had to hide that from, would be exhausting. I understand why you might be tempted to try to hide it - the fear of rejection. But keeping something that big a secret for years and years? That would wear me down.
We're talking about a potential GF/new wife situation. I would believe this hypothetical woman would be understanding of your need to fix yourself. You don't have to explain to hypothetical woman what you do or what you speak about with your therapist. That is confidential.
This is about YOU and what YOU need. This is for YOUR health.
Again, any person you want to have as your GF/new wife (potential) would, IMO, be more than accepting of your needs and health.