Today was not so great. Feeling sick to my stomach and coming off of another crying spell. I hate that I ruined my relationship. I wish o could turn back the hands of time. The person i thought I'd spend forever with doesn't even like me. He adores our baby but wants nothing to do with me. Everybody will b better off without me. Trying to find the silver line before making a permanent decision but I wouldn't know what to do with myself if I remained alive. I wish I never met him. I can't be strong for myself and now I have a child. I am a horrible person there's no place 4 me on earth
Post by Jacarandagirl on Oct 19, 2014 14:38:40 GMT -8
Yes, please call someone to talk if you can. I just want to say that there is no difference between you and any of us here on this forum. We are all love addicts, or anorectics or a variation on the theme of addicted to something that doesn't work. If you don't have a place on earth, then none of us do. It's logic I'm talking about...there is the same point to your life as there is to all of our lives. We are all in it together.
"You deserve better than something that may be comfortable for you but you already know doesn't work and that you'll be complaining about soon enough and hoping that something or someone else will do what you can't even do for yourself. You deserve better - you deserve change".
Excerpt from www.baggagereclaim.com
I agree -- call the hotline. And listen to J-girl's words. She speaks the truth, although I know it is hard to believe the message when one is in deep anguish and suicidal. I remember hitting rock bottom, and just wanting to die.
I fervently pray for you and that you call the hotline... This is a wonderful forum, and you will find a lot of support. But -- suicidal ideation is something you need to get help with right now. Get help NOW by calling the number above. I pray you are calling as I am writing this post.
Last Edit: Oct 19, 2014 16:05:30 GMT -8 by havefaith
Be careful on the hotline. If you convey that you might be a danger to yourself they might 51/50 you. It happened to one of my clients. When you call just talk about the depression. We have a forum for depression/thoughts of suicide.